Sorry

I didn’t expect I have an arguement with one of my teacher. I told her about her mistake on countings of the numbers that were supposed to be corrected. I supposed to have 86% but she didn’t even correct it so I remain 83% grade for the midterm exam. For all I know teachers would entertain corrections, but she never did any corrections. Now, I didn’t mean to say something that will offend her. In the class, she makes me felt ashamed because she announced to my classmates that I have no manner. I was hurt, almost to cry. But I try not to cry. My seatmates defend me because I was in the right track.

Due to embarassment, I forgot to say “sorry” to her.

I realized it is hard to please people who didn’t even know how to accept mistakes. And that is my teacher. I will now understand. I know God says, that instead of fighting the most appropriate way is to pray to God about some wrong stuff.

Now, I will attend the anticipating mass for reconciling and asking forgiveness. Thank You God!

No Denials

I was caught by my sister and her boyfriend about my post here. I was feel ashamed, because I usually deny something part about him (the X). I thought some of my post here has been read by them. Arrgghhh! 

A Gift Given By A Friend

I have  this guy friend, which is I think my sister’s boyfriend. I was glad he gave me a small magazine - WORD4U TODAY (www.theedge.ph). I used to read magazines and books that kept me interesting. 

Second Post In 2010

I started my day with the usual mood. I have sleepless nights now because of the new year’s celebration last night. But I have enjoy the last hour of 2009.

My concern now is that I was being mad by a closed relative my cousin. I liked this cousin because he keeps on making jokes.

Now, I’m quite hate him because I was trying to need help from them actually I felt bad also with my sister. Sometimes I hate her attitude, she doesn’t have a concern for others but what she has is her own self which is too selfish! I was asking for their help but they refused my favor and that made me felt bad.

Now, I feel rejection. I feel all alone. When I started to work, I always asked forgiveness to God. All I want is to be happy with your loved ones but then they hesitated to be companion with me. The only person who doesn’t leave me is God then next is my mom. I usually get my courage and strength in my mom and with th Lord’s help.

New Year 2010

Last night I spend the last hours of 2009 in preparing foods. My mom and I also spend the last 2 hours in attending mass. Not too surprisely, I saw my crush. I wasn’t surprised because I already expecting it. He and his mom also attend the mass. After the mass, we met and greeted each other a “Happy New Year.” You know there is a little extra happiness I felt at that night. But, now, I have realized I’ve been crazy over my crush lately. I have been realized too that maybe he don’t like me like I do. So, by this new year I want to stop stalking him and try to focus on myself. I notice before christmas day, he tend to avoid chatting with me. I will never expect soon to see him or even chatting with him. I don’t want to think about him anymore. Period.

Last Day of 2009

Sometimes we felt like the whole year was your good year. Yeah, I’d admit it my 2009 was one of the best years I have ever experienced. I have experienced slowly the beginning and refreshment of my life. I was recovering myself from being dumpness. I was happy. I see life after every problem. I love God more and more. I was so blessed. I love my Mom alot. I love to work without any material thing in return. Everything is okey. I love it! 

Goodbye 2009. Hello 2010. I wished 2010 would be a good year for me. Thanks for the good memories! 

Am I Falling In Love With My Crush?

Every night I dreamed about him. Yesterday, I was surprised by his presence. In the morning, we parked in the middle of the market. When everyone is there completely in the car, we drove right away. But when the engine started, I saw my crush and super lucky that he also saw me too. Due to my excitement and surprised I waved a hand to him with all the smile. I couldn’t imagine how he smiled me back. He smiled with a beauitful smile. He looks good and handsome. We are near at the church and I was praying to God that since we had a beach party I asked him that He would give a nice day and good climate. But, God surprised me, cuz the day before that I wasn’t able to saw him the whole day and I was realized that God made it for me to make me happy. I am very happy to the highest level. I thank God for this!

Thank You Lord!

Happy Christmas

I missed blogging. The christmas is almost near. Yesterday and today, I attend the first dawn mass in preparation for the coming of Jesus Christ. I really love to attend mass during this season that’s what we called Misa De Gallo in the Philippines. We had snack after mass. My eyes were so big and I have sleepless nights but it’s worth it. I would sacrifice for Jesus and to my loved ones. I have to prepare myself after the mass to take over the store.

The mass will start at 4 am in the morning and usually ends up with 5:30 am. Then my duty will start at 8 am. I must have enough time because I usually fixed myself one hour of preparation, bathing, eating breakfast, and sitting until my eyes drop to sleep. I used to this situation because I started since I was in 4rth grade. I believed that every wished you wanna ask will be given to you. But, it’s up more on the faith to God. One of my favorite scripture in the bible is this: “If you remain in me and my words remain to you, ask whatever you wish and it will bw given to you.”

:)

I Really Like Him

Last night was amazing because I and my crush had talked. He was glad that I played also the game he usually played. He always smile. He keeps on teasing me. I can’t even concentrate when he was in my back sitted. He and the other guy helped me about the game. But more concern is from him. I always smile with a reason. Though I wished I could talk to him, I didn’t expect it to happen.

I Missed My Ex-BF

I learned how to love because of him. I met him during high school days. We were actually strangers to each other until when we entered into a dance group, we became friends. He knew me. He knew my crush and my likes. I never imagine we came to a point where in both our hearts became into one. I know that he had feelings for me when he post testimonials on my Friendster account. I can’t believe that he has feeling for me cuz look, he looks great, handsome and rich. But I know what love means that LOVE could be unconditional. I missed him terribly. Our break-ups is quite okey, we both understand ourselves. I am happy for him that he finally found someone who could fill his joy and happiness. I viewed his pictures together with his new girlfriend and I am quite happy and satified. But I couldn’t control myself to keep on loving him cuz he let me see what the world of Love is.