It seems that I’m not qualified

I always look for a job through internet. Unfortunately, most of the job are not fitted to me. Though I also know a little about some kind of stuffs. I’m not an IT student. I really need to make an effort to do about website layouting and programming. Sometimes, I felt like I was losing hope. I want to earn money. 

God, please grant my request. Hope I can find the right job for me whatever the salary is. I want to try it out. I want to help and make my mama proud.

It’s My Bad Luck Yesterday

I will enumerate what had happend to me yesterday:

1. I came to school too early for my 2:30-4pm class. I did not know that my regular class have been adjusted. I came here at school at exactly 2:00 pm. I was wondering around why 2:30 class haven’t yet dismiss until I waited for almost 30 minutes, until I realized that it’s too late to wait outside the room. I peep on the glass of the door and saw them that classes have been starting 2 pm. I did not hesitate to came in the room. They looked at me when I was entering the room. I was shocked that the class I entered is 5 minutes before dismissal. I felt like my world fell down so badly. I wasn’t able to take the quiz which I already prepared for. Almost my day was a sh*t. All negative energies has been releasing. I always think of it. I couldn’t even focus on my review forone of my exams which had not taken yet. 

2. Since that there was shortening of time due to such program like  Student’s Awareness Drug S.A.D. Unfortunately every students were not allowed to go out to school. So, we feel like we’re in prison. Students were complaining with all the shits and fucks words. 

 3. I saw my senior crush (not my current crush). I don’t have any crush on him ever. Cuz he felt like I was still interested on him. Never now! I did not expect to see him around the campus. I hurridly ran, but he catched me. I did not stare him. What I did was arranging paper on the bench pretending that I was busy. Until, I hurridly ran far away from him.

 4. At late night, I was too mad texting on my classmates because we really need to finish the project by tomorrow because deadline is by the next day. Unfortunately, now, our teacher is absent.

What a bad day! I couldn’t control my temper! >:(

Times That We Never Met Each Other

I could still remember the last time I saw him was in summer! Oh! No, no, the last time he smiles at me! Hahaha!

Lol. I miss the moment with my crush. Hihihi. I must admit that I’m such a good stalker. I already knew his schedule class during weekdays. I had read his current status in Facebook account, which I think it was his worst situation because his relationship with his girlfriend is quite unclear. I don’t know the story behind their conflict. 

I was happy the last time I saw him riding a bus with the same bus I also ride. I don’t know if he actually ride the same bus. I don’t know also if he saw me there.

I always imagining that I could talk to my crush again or simply says, “Hi!” What am I looking for him is that to know more about his personalities. 

I could say, he’s such my dream man as of now. Hehe. I like him because the way he stood and behave acts like a professional man. I like him also because he knows household chores. He’s not spoiled though he’s the only son of the family. 

I asked God about something happen that I could greatly appreciated of. Like seeing him and chat him a while just only for a while, at least. I want short conversation with him having sense of humor. Wee!

I can’t stand this feelings now, that’s why I posted a blog, though I must prioritize first my studies because exam is fast approaching. I am now happy at least I have reveal my feelings through net. 

Thank you for reading. God loves us so much!

I love you all! ♥ 

Random Thoughts Only

I feel hungry and sleepy.

Okay. Let me speak about what happened lately with my life. I was officially enrolled with 21 units only. That enough for a senior student. Actually, we really needed it so badly to have more than 21 units becuase we need to get all those major subjects so that in the next semester we could have our on-the-job training. But, we are not allowed to add more subjects.

I have almost major subjects this semester. I think this would be the most pressured semester I would encounter in my BSBA life.  But, I don’t complain that much becuase I need it the most. This time, I would have spending a little time on the net. I wished I could do this and can overcome stress.

I was asking God that He would help me about my schedule this sem. And I felt it has worked it out. Thank God! I really love God so much, He really leds my life to the perfect way. He helps me when I need him, and when times gets harder and harder, all I can to is to surrender my life and He will direct it to His way.

I thank God wholeheartedly that our current problems have been solved. He doesn’t hide himself from us. He is our protector and the best comforter ever!

Keep in touch with God and He will lead you to perfect life. Amen to God!  

Adding and Dropping

It was such tired day! This is our first opening of school. We still have problems regarding our schedules and subjects that are needed to enroll. But, in the end of this day, I still thank God because at least we’re given another subject to be open. We all hope that we can add that subject becuase it is necessary to us to get that in order that we could have our practicum on the next semester.

May God bless us tomorrow! Amen.  

I’m still awake!

One thing that could stop me from being so sleepy is b watching PBB Teen Clash online via Live Streams. Fortunately, the live stream can sta live for longer time that is why I’m still enjoying myself while waiting for our customer to end their time. 

What I did tonight:

1. Watching live stream.

2. Tumblr-ing.

3. Listening soothing music in Youtube.

4. Answering Formspring questions.

5. Monitoring time.  

Sigh

I really don’t know what to say, honestly. I’m still thinking about what discussion am I going to write in order to have a new content from my blog. 

A Happy Trip in Bukidnon, Cagayan and Iligan City

Hello! I am back! I had at least a break from summer classes. I really love my new friends and our best teacher Sir Jolly Laboy.

Here are some of our pictures taken from the beginning, during and last trip: PLEASE CLICK ON IMAGE TO VIEW LARGER.

 It was 4 early dawn when we arrived at the meeting place.

 Our first aspiring pagent post in overview of the Bukidnon.

The person on the left is our FM-E2 Teacher. We are just a good followers.

The best view in Bukidnon at the top of the hill. I love the essence of nature. I was so impressed by God’s creation.

 This is Sir Jolly Laboy! Our tour guide as well as our best teacher!

We need shorcut in order to reached the top!

When we were at the top! The wide view is pretty amazing!

 Headin up to Ma. Crisitina Falls! We are so excited to see it!

 We finally reached the famous Ma. Cristina Fall in Iligan City! The fall has the best view ever!  .

Photo taken by our teacher. 

Another embarassment moment in Rizal’s class

This morning I went to school exactly on time. I thought that I would be going to be late cuz the bus was driving slowly. Fortunately I was 5 minutes late and super lucky then that I was at the classroom where our teacher is not yet there. By our lessons ended we took a quiz and after that we ended up early. I was in the middle of the decision if I’m going to exit the room. I thought that our teacher would mark us absent if we’re going to leave the room because he had his things left in the classroom. After a few minutes, I leave the room. I go to the internet laboratory for updating our stock trading game in the internet which opens only from 9-12 nn. Our room and net lab is almost near so I could see whether our teacher would be entering back to classroom. So, I saw someone who enter the classroom then I immediately run until I reached the room. Until….. I was spotted and our teacher was insulted cuz the 3 of us was caught by *assuming* cutting classes. I don’t know what to do at that time. I stand outside the classroom while my two classmates was being scolded and then, so mention about me, our teacher wants to let me in the room and was expected again to be scolded. Our teacher is being insulted to what we did lastly. Our teacher investigate us why we do that. We were pointe out who was the master mind of that activity. So, as when the teacher talked to me. I was being so embarrassed.  I felt like I was so stupid, naive, useless and has no COMMON SENSE! I felt like I’m a robot who always follow. Our teacher instead was laughing at me and so our classmates. If I could really captured out my face at that moment you will definitely judge that I’m really like an insane person. I always being payed attention to our teacher. He always catches my attention, my works, my behavior and my facial expression. You know, I  feel so embarassed cuz everyone always laughed at me and their eyes was steady at me. I was convincing myself to smile because I don’t want to feel them that I’m a super weak who immediately cry. I know, this is much a lesson for me. Now, I really regret it from the moment I know our teacher in Rizal. His voice was so loud, he is a giant person that’s why I fear him. He is a philosopher. He can detect every failure we had committed. I thought our teacher would say that I’m dropped. I thank God for not letting it happen cuz I might cry. I know, my classmates would remembered me because of so much shame that has been showed up to the class. 

Dreams of unreality

Some dreams might be true and some are not. I have two dreams.

My first dream was that I and Kier met together with his brother at there place. As usual treatment, I treat him as a friend. We go laughing and making fun just to enjoy ourselves. When at that moment I suddenly saw a beautiful church and I said to him, “Wow! What a nice church is that! C’mon let’s go there, I wanna see the church!” That church is still under construction. But as I see it, it was made in strong materials. It was some kind of vintage that soon will be more beautiful if it will be finished. I talked to him that the church is pretty amazing. And that’s it! That part is my first dream ended. 

I woke up in the morning with some happy expression with a question. Because I really don’t know what my dream is all about. I go for MAYBE or even NO, IT WON’T HAPPEN because dreams are the reverse of the reality.

My second dream is when I ran and ran to the depths of my breathe until I was destined to his place again. This time, he was there with I think with friends or I think with friends and his current girlfriend. As I ran because I want to escape from any corporal punishment that have been present into our community. Our community is experiencing slavery at that moment of my dreams that is why I escaped until it happened to see him at his place. I was asking for a help to them so that I couldhide myself from the bad people whos running to catch me. So, he did help me, he instead help me keeping far away from that place. So, we went to a place like a resort where peace could be the way for relaxing. As we drove to that place, in a bus, we had talked much of our past. We also talked about how is he now. The most important conversation I always keep in mind while dreaming is that he told me saying this line, “I could wait for someone because I had this promise that I still keep and treasured and it is you!” I  was so shocked! I could feel that he’d still loved me. And the end, he holds my hands. 

I missed him terribly. I know I can’t be with him forever but the friendship we had is still a treasure for me. Nothing else. Cuz I know loving someone is to make them happy even if you have to let go.

God loves his people. So I am loving people around me.