I Really Like Him

Last night was amazing because I and my crush had talked. He was glad that I played also the game he usually played. He always smile. He keeps on teasing me. I can’t even concentrate when he was in my back sitted. He and the other guy helped me about the game. But more concern is from him. I always smile with a reason. Though I wished I could talk to him, I didn’t expect it to happen.

I Missed My Ex-BF

I learned how to love because of him. I met him during high school days. We were actually strangers to each other until when we entered into a dance group, we became friends. He knew me. He knew my crush and my likes. I never imagine we came to a point where in both our hearts became into one. I know that he had feelings for me when he post testimonials on my Friendster account. I can’t believe that he has feeling for me cuz look, he looks great, handsome and rich. But I know what love means that LOVE could be unconditional. I missed him terribly. Our break-ups is quite okey, we both understand ourselves. I am happy for him that he finally found someone who could fill his joy and happiness. I viewed his pictures together with his new girlfriend and I am quite happy and satified. But I couldn’t control myself to keep on loving him cuz he let me see what the world of Love is. 

Status Update

I feel exhausted today. It’s part of my work. I think I need lots of rest. I’m having this sleep disorder. I can’t even slept at night when everyone is supposed to be asleep.

Part of being a student I must prepare reports and reviews to notes. How I wished to no class for tomorrow, but our school didn;t announce it. The administration had already announced it whole national. Asie from that I want to see my crush tomorrow! Wahhaa! I know he hasn’t class every MWF he told me so. 

Holla!

Hello. Today was still a good day for me. Lately, when we had our quiz, I was guessing an answer. And fortunately, my answer was correct. I told my classmate about that answer and then when we checked our papers and we got 5 points from that! We are so happy because we don’t even know the actual answer, we were just guessing. I got one mistake. Wohoo! Bravo to me! 

It’s my Papa’s Birthday Today

I don’t even know how old he is. Too bad. But I still missed my Papa. He is now residing in Manila separeted from us.

Together with this date, my Ninang also celebrated her birthday today! They were busy preparing for her big event cuz she is turning 60. I am very glad to see the tarpulin which I made special for Ninang’s birthday. You know what, I earn income from that layouting. So, my career is officially start this year. Wanna hire me? Hehehe.

I will post more topics later. I have only 5 minutes vacant before the next subject.

I always feel tired at school

I really don’t know why I felt this way. I believed it is from the ambiance or seems like no friends. I went to school alone. No classmates to hang out with. That’s how miserable my life is. Do you know what I really do when I am at school? Within these past few days, I went to a place where most strangers want to buy stuffs (mall). I usually done window shopping. No money to buy things that I wanted.

I Wonder

I’m glad to see you guys dropping to this blog all over the world. I was wondering how would you find my blog? Is it through Google, Yahoo or the blog itself? 

I need you to response. Thank You!  

Report

We already ended up our reporting. Our concept about reporting is through talkshow. I was tasked to be as one of the co-host. 

I will continue this for some time cuz I have my class now. See yah! 

Misses Saturday

I wasn’t in the mood to post new blog last saturday because I was felt down. Here’s what happened last saturday:

When we were at the chapel for Babeh’s final burial,everyone seems so quiet and I was hiding and almost crying. The mass was still going on, and me, trying to calm myself cannot even hide the feelings I felt for Babeh’s death. She is like my younger sister cuz I’m the only younger of the family. Again, Babeh is not my blood-related peson. She is merely my neighbor. I know everything about that baby girl. That’s why I am one of most affected of that situation. As the mass ended, we approach to Babeh’s casket. I can’t even bursts out my feelings. I always cry until I almost faint. No, almost to faint. My heart seems to tighten and I can’t even catch my breath. My hands were getting numb and I told Mama about it. I was so scared for what had happened to me. I don’t even know my sickness. I was attacked almost 3 times. And that’s the 3rd attack. I cried and cried. Mama is there to comfort me. Mommy (Babeh’s mother) saw my situation that’s why she insisted that I must prefer to stay back home and take some rest. But I can’t I’d still want to go there to witness the last goodbye of Babeh. Bon-Bon (Babeh’s older sister) lend me some water to calm. I can’t even control my hands. I was worried that it could be a sign of stroke? Oh, no! I wished it is not! They left us. Only few are still remain in the chapel. I always insisted Mama “I want to go there.” But Mama already got mad because I might be faint there and it will cause problem. That’s why I decide to stay in our store almost near to the cemetery. My Kuya saw me crying. I want to cry it aloud so that my feelings would be at ease. But there, there’s no place to be stay alone. So I went back to the other store which had a room. There, I was alone and crying. Lying on bed still crying. I felt the super headache. I can’t even fall asleep. After 3 hours I felt quite calm. Everything’s going back to normal. I only recall to saw pictures and videos of Babeh. 

At that night, my ease was increasing due to my crush’s presence. He first talk to me and we talked awhile. 

Next post again. It’s already time.

First Meet To A Teacher

My first subject is Financial E1 - Cooperative Management. I never thought I could meet a teacher like her. I’m about to enter the classroom late, but then her expression was a part of shame for me. She stared at me and speak for words that had offend me. She said that, “You’re not supposed to be here late, you are not qualify here.” So, to my mind, I was thinking that she tries to emphasize that I should drop the subject if this will gonna be happen - to be late. But I was explaining to her why I was late. I know teacher would not be treat her students like that. I’m almost to cry but I keep my worries to fade. I find myself alone there and no one approached me to welcomed me to that class. She made a task for us, and immediately I did. She called one by one about what we had defined the subject. I was looking for a friend indeed to see me and point me to recite my answer. But no one saw me. I know I have few classmates lately but they ignored me as if they don’t know me at all. I felt like I’m not really belong to this course. I could feel the loneliness. Although I always experienced it, I don’t want to lived that forever.