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January 1, 2010

I started my day with the usual mood. I have sleepless nights now because of the new year’s celebration last night. But I have enjoy the last hour of 2009.

My concern now is that I was being mad by a closed relative my cousin. I liked this cousin because he keeps on making jokes.

Now, I’m quite hate him because I was trying to need help from them actually I felt bad also with my sister. Sometimes I hate her attitude, she doesn’t have a concern for others but what she has is her own self which is too selfish! I was asking for their help but they refused my favor and that made me felt bad.

Now, I feel rejection. I feel all alone. When I started to work, I always asked forgiveness to God. All I want is to be happy with your loved ones but then they hesitated to be companion with me. The only person who doesn’t leave me is God then next is my mom. I usually get my courage and strength in my mom and with th Lord’s help.

 

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New Year 2010

Last night I spend the last hours of 2009 in preparing foods. My mom and I also spend the last 2 hours in attending mass. Not too surprisely, I saw my crush. I wasn’t surprised because I already expecting it. He and his mom also attend the mass. After the mass, we met and greeted each other a “Happy New Year.” You know there is a little extra happiness I felt at that night. But, now, I have realized I’ve been crazy over my crush lately. I have been realized too that maybe he don’t like me like I do. So, by this new year I want to stop stalking him and try to focus on myself. I notice before christmas day, he tend to avoid chatting with me. I will never expect soon to see him or even chatting with him. I don’t want to think about him anymore. Period.

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