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The cold treatment

March 26, 2010

They almost near to know my crush here. Now, I have to control myself on saying about him or even writing to a social networking chats. He’s here a while but after few minutes he passed out. I ignored him just like the usual treatment to all of customers here. I ignored him as an ordinary person, but this person is my crush. He’s somewhat a sort of a special friend to me.

Two times it happened when somebody guess his name and I immediately make way to refuse their answers. I am not that open to my feelings to others. I am very secretive person.

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The story of this day

March 21, 2010

I wake up 5:30 am so that I could attend the first mass. After a mass I started to clean up household chores because we’re going to have visitors. All done prepared and well cleaned. I felt that I don’t have enough energy the entire day. I bought ballons and ice creams.

I really want to take a long relaxation. Still fresh from my mind about the semetral break. After the celebration, I have to go to our store to take temporary replacement on one of our workers.

One more thing that mad me feel so lonely is that I did not see him *crush*. He’s a little inspiration to me while still on work at least I will make my day even brighter.

 

Lord, help me. I’m totally drained and burnout. I am feeling hopeless and useless. I want something to do now but I can’t do it because I don’t have time. I also want to know my core interest because I used to think that I have lots of interests need to practice an to work on. I know Lord, that I cannot do everything. Lord, I want to be a person who has full of wisdom so that I could understand my life.

 

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I am happy to see him

March 16, 2010

This afternoon as I was talking to a kid, he appeared and whistle, that’s why my head turn on him and then with a smile as if I was deadly recognized him for the first time.

I knew it now. He’s trying to get my attention by whistling. I heard it every time he sees me or if he knows that I am present in that particular place.

I think now, shall he have feelings for me  too? Or, am I making my own fantasies? As I try to evaluate, it really happen many times. But, this is not love I’d think it’s an infatuation…

 

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A Dinner with Mama And Older Sister

March 8, 2010

Last night we spend our time in dinner in a mall while waiting the lights to restore beacuse it was blocked out that time. It was mama and I who have the first time to have a dinner in a chinese restaurant. My mama always murmuring that that restuarant is too expensive. Heee. She never used to have a dinner with a class restaurant that’s why she always complaining.. But my sister didn’t pay so much attention to what my mama had said. We both know that mama is happy because we spend time altogether and at least she doesn’t have to pay the bills. It was my sister’s treat. We ordered much meal until we’re almost full. The food is great. We packed up the foods left and gave it to one of our workers. The food tastes so great. 

That night was so great. At least, we spend time in dinner with us 3 girls. Although my brother is not there, but I think he understands us. I was so happy then. I always thank God for these moments… I love Him! I love my Mama and sister and all other people.

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