It seems that I’m not qualified

I always look for a job through internet. Unfortunately, most of the job are not fitted to me. Though I also know a little about some kind of stuffs. I’m not an IT student. I really need to make an effort to do about website layouting and programming. Sometimes, I felt like I was losing hope. I want to earn money. 

God, please grant my request. Hope I can find the right job for me whatever the salary is. I want to try it out. I want to help and make my mama proud.

It’s My Bad Luck Yesterday

I will enumerate what had happend to me yesterday:

1. I came to school too early for my 2:30-4pm class. I did not know that my regular class have been adjusted. I came here at school at exactly 2:00 pm. I was wondering around why 2:30 class haven’t yet dismiss until I waited for almost 30 minutes, until I realized that it’s too late to wait outside the room. I peep on the glass of the door and saw them that classes have been starting 2 pm. I did not hesitate to came in the room. They looked at me when I was entering the room. I was shocked that the class I entered is 5 minutes before dismissal. I felt like my world fell down so badly. I wasn’t able to take the quiz which I already prepared for. Almost my day was a sh*t. All negative energies has been releasing. I always think of it. I couldn’t even focus on my review forone of my exams which had not taken yet. 

2. Since that there was shortening of time due to such program like  Student’s Awareness Drug S.A.D. Unfortunately every students were not allowed to go out to school. So, we feel like we’re in prison. Students were complaining with all the shits and fucks words. 

 3. I saw my senior crush (not my current crush). I don’t have any crush on him ever. Cuz he felt like I was still interested on him. Never now! I did not expect to see him around the campus. I hurridly ran, but he catched me. I did not stare him. What I did was arranging paper on the bench pretending that I was busy. Until, I hurridly ran far away from him.

 4. At late night, I was too mad texting on my classmates because we really need to finish the project by tomorrow because deadline is by the next day. Unfortunately, now, our teacher is absent.

What a bad day! I couldn’t control my temper! >:(

Times That We Never Met Each Other

I could still remember the last time I saw him was in summer! Oh! No, no, the last time he smiles at me! Hahaha!

Lol. I miss the moment with my crush. Hihihi. I must admit that I’m such a good stalker. I already knew his schedule class during weekdays. I had read his current status in Facebook account, which I think it was his worst situation because his relationship with his girlfriend is quite unclear. I don’t know the story behind their conflict. 

I was happy the last time I saw him riding a bus with the same bus I also ride. I don’t know if he actually ride the same bus. I don’t know also if he saw me there.

I always imagining that I could talk to my crush again or simply says, “Hi!” What am I looking for him is that to know more about his personalities. 

I could say, he’s such my dream man as of now. Hehe. I like him because the way he stood and behave acts like a professional man. I like him also because he knows household chores. He’s not spoiled though he’s the only son of the family. 

I asked God about something happen that I could greatly appreciated of. Like seeing him and chat him a while just only for a while, at least. I want short conversation with him having sense of humor. Wee!

I can’t stand this feelings now, that’s why I posted a blog, though I must prioritize first my studies because exam is fast approaching. I am now happy at least I have reveal my feelings through net. 

Thank you for reading. God loves us so much!

I love you all! ♥